nooner

Hit the noon meeting today. A woman I know there said hello and asked how I was doing. When the meeting was ready to start, I went in first. She came in a couple of minutes later and sat next to me; then she asked if I had been saving that seat for someone. Thinking quickly, I told her that I had been saving it for her. Smooth.

The topic for the meeting was "changing people, places and things." I kept my mouth shut and my ears open, but toward the end I wanted to say, "I haven't been in a relationship in ten years; does that mean I should get into one now? That would be a change."

Silly, I know. That's why I didn't say it.

One thing they tell us in the program is to stay out of new relationships for at least a year, but when I was sober from 2000 until 2003 I didn't have so much as a single date. Loneliness was one of the many reasons I had difficulty hanging on to sobriety.