meds

I have been out of my meds since 24 July 2008 and have been trying since March to get them from The Harbor.

I have an appointment with Heather at The Harbor today at 2:30 pm. Hopefully Lisa can take me there, but it is hard enough to get her out of bed for her own doctor visits. She was supposed to go to her doctor yesterday to get refills for several of her prescriptions but refused to get up. Her sleep schedule lately has been: go to sleep sometime in the middle of the night (about 2 am), get up around noon, go back to sleep within an hour, sleep until eight or 9 pm.

Heather wants me to get proof from the Social Security office that I haven't worked in over a year, and also insists that I apply again for Medicaid, even though she knows that I have applied before and am unable to get it in Florida. I should have a Medicaid denial letter from April, but the Social Security office will probably be a required visit unless I can get what I need online.

As soon as I am done with this blog entry, I will be contacting my previous case managers from Tallahassee and also the Program Director at the Apalachee Center's "Drop-In Center" facility. Perhaps they can provide background and references for me to The Harbor.

If Lisa can't take me, I'll ride the bus. I should be able to scrape up enough change for a one-way trip. Maybe they will provide a bus pass to get home. Maybe I'll just check myself in to the Crisis Unit. Those suicidal thoughts are coming more and more often and I am constantly agitated. The agitation is also increasing in both frequency and intensity. I want to work but cannot make myself get to do it. When I see a place where I should apply, I am unable to enter or ask (most of the time). When I can summon the necessary courage they most often tell me to apply online.